Welcome to 2019! The year is less than a week old and already I’m encountering a paradox.

Last Sunday I shared how I spent 2018 coming to terms with the continued shift in focus of my business—with less spiritual guidance and retreat leadership and more writing and editing for clients. Then, on Monday, I got an invitation to lead another retreat at St. Philips in the Hills, where I led an Advent retreat last month.

Of course, my initial reaction was pleasure that the retreat had gone well enough that they wanted me to lead another one. (I already knew from various feedback that it had been impactful and appreciated.) My next reaction was, “O God, how can I top this?” So, I took it to prayer, knowing that the Spirit would guide me, as has happened in the past—and help me let go of results!—and Friday morning I got a God-given response. At 4:30 in the morning(!), the retreat began to unfold for me, to the point that I had it planned out by the time I got out of bed at 6 am! (Yes, I did not get back to sleep….) I imagine there will be tweaks, but the basic content and structure are in place—and it’s darn good, if I do say so myself!

So I am sitting with a paradox. My business, with its implicit opportunities for ministry, is booming—a